I should probably start by saying that I'm terrible at saying good byes.
Today is the last day in Corning for me; last day of being a FLEX exchange student. I have a bright mix of emotions; I'm sad and happy, depressed and positive, scared and excited and all because of one thing - I'm coming home. You would think that coming home is always a good thing, but all exchange students out there understand the way I feel.
I haven't been at home for a year. Okay, I haven't been there for ten and a half months, but what's the difference, really? I completely got used to a different country, culture and people. I had to go through a culture shock and then it took me a while to get rid of the feeling of being a stranger here, but I did it. I got used to everything here, to every single house and road in this small town. And now what?
Now I have to say good bye for who-knows-how-long-time to people who have become my second family and were so nice and supportive, to people who have become my american friends and whom i'm gonna miss a lot, to the house which has always been welcome, to the room where I was laughing and crying when nobody could see it, and to the nice small town which I'll never forget.
And I'm going back home, back to people whom I haven't seen for a year and who have changed and made new friends. In less than a day I'm going to see people who haven't gone the way I have. And still they're my family and friends, who supported me all the way and who used to know me so well. I can't deny that I've missed them like crazy and very excited to see them again.
There is a really good old Russian proverb "Старый друг лучше новых двух" ("Old friends and old wine are the best") and boy do I hope it will turn out to be true.
I know that many exchange students feel the way I do, but not many of them speak up about it. I just hope that this post will help all of you, who are waiting for their friends/family to come back from a long amazing journey, to understand what we feel when we're getting ready to go back home.
In order to end up on a positive note I should say that I'm almost done with packing and getting ready to go on a night bike ride. The last one.
I don't know why you say good bye, I say hello.
P.S.: I'm not really in the mood to read it all again, so I'm sorry for my badly organized thoughts.